Team #Atticuspoetry

Dear Atticus,

This may sound crazy but guess what i wrote in my secret Santa wish list "Favorite Team: Team @Atticuspoetry." This Christmas i just wanted to send you a thank you letter for helping me out during hard times.
This year hasn't been the best year of my life. I didn't know what anxiety or panic attack felt like but guess what i can check them out of my list now. It sucks and most specially those sleepless night. I went to my counselor couple of times asking her "if i could ever fix myself because this is not the way i want to feel." She said, "there is nothing broken to be fixed." I  used to loose myself into books and just write about thousands different blogs about the same guy but this time i didn't even wanted to write not even read a book. All new books this fall just have been staring at my dead face and weeping at the side.
I used to go through your Instagram post and feel every writing so when your fall tour showed i booked the tickets immediately. But, guess what on the way to the Tattered Covered Book store my car's hood just flipped over because i was being dumb and didn't lock my latch properly. All i could see in front of me was darkness. Later I cried my heart out in front of my supervisor. I thought nothing is gonna go right this year.

After a month, I finally got my book shipped to me and I couldn't feel less loved. Every night i read your little cliche poems and it just makes me feel right, that somewhere out there, it's not always dark sometimes there might be a color of blue and pink and some lilac sky out there.

I do chalk couture and write your quotes on the empty canvases, fill my walls with it. Reminds me that i could give love to myself too.

Thank you! Thank you so much for always being there. I really really appreciate your words.

x
suweksha

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