#metoo

#metoo

I was 9. I am 20 now and I still carry those scars

#metoo

I was 17 he was 24

I shouted, yelled, dug my nails deep into his skin and begged to stop 

but he didn't

he kept going,

and going

he kept going 

until he ripping my soul, tattoed scars and marks all over my body.

He was my brother's friend.

And the worst part is my brother believed him over me.

Me too

he was  56 and I was 17

Me too

I don't know if it means anything coming out from a transgender but it happened.

Multiple times. 

Multiple times 

at the metro station, concerts, work and at home by my own family member.

As a 6th grader

group of boys marched towards me like a murder of crows and magpies 

like a cackle of hyenas

held me against the wall 

pulled my shirt up high 

just to see if I stuffed my bra with Charmin or bounty

#metoo

At 15

At 20

At 34

#metoo

survivor of kidnap

survivor of harassment, rape, physical abuse by my husband

and every trail

each and every trail were like being raped all over again

#not only girls but men too

oh come on men don't get assaulted

men are gorillas

men are meant to be brawny

men are meant to be tough

men are meant to be rough

men are meant to be strong

men are meant to be tough, rough and strong.

but dear world know that deep down this gorillas are humans

who have their own insecurities 

#metoo

I am a man and I was assaulted by my own mother.

#metoo

I have been sexually assaulted by a woman.

People still tell me I should have liked it and been happy.

And, I am tried of howling screaming and roaring that I didn't like it.

I am a man

and

I didn't find it good in any way.

#metoo

I am shouting infront of you

reciting different stories and incidents

But at the same time I am tired

tired of hiding my secret

I was assaulted too

I was assaulted by a stranger in the public

who didn't hesitate to dug his nails deep down on my breast

And I am not sorry

I am not sorry to drag him in the main street

I am not sorry that I kicked his balls

I am not sorry that I shouted in the public

I am not sorry protecting myself against his greedy hands

I am not sorry for grabbing his collar

and looking at those filthy eyes with fury of anger

and yelling

BEFORE YOU FUCK THE EAGLE

LEARN HOW TO FLY.